Confetti Rain Falls And A Quiet Street

the beauty is in what you make it, so get up on your feet

because tonight, the world turned in me

because right now, i don't dare to breathe

(Jimmy Eat World- Chase This Light)

I have to admitt, my neck of the woods looks awfully pretty at this time of year. With the sun, the greenery and the blossom it looks a little flickr-collectiony. I went for a walk with my ipod and just stood on the railway bridge for about ten minutes listening to Nada Surf. Albeit there were some weird, slightly frightened glances from passing commuters, but it was just a really serene moment. See, my minds been whirling around a lot lately, but i've finally hit on a winning combination to prevent my head feeling like its in a pressure cooker. Essentially, SH09 taught me this winning trick of what is called (within, ahem, intellectual circles) 'lectio divina' which is basically a form of meditation/Bible study which is the teenage girl equivalent of the horse whisperer, cause i can actively feel my knots unscrunch. Then when everything starts moving at a more leisurely pace, stress seems further away, and everything stops snowballing.

So, there's been a lot more deep breathing and gasping at the view of my sleepy town from the outskirts. Which is lovely, because its the place where i've come of age with style. That's one of these things i can't stop thinking about right now, that its almost all over. This era ends in just over three weeks, and i am just not quite ready. I'm getting there, really i am, but i just can't process that in september everyone starts their adult life, we're no longer school kids and we should have dealt with all this drama. I cant quite articulate eloquently exactly how i'm feeling, but its half sad, half excited. Like i can't decide whether to be teary or wide eyed about everything turning upside down.