Here Comes The Sun

(The Beatles)

Got home today and i'm feeling happy, happy, happy ♥

Honestly, there's no caviat to it, I've just had one of the loveliest weekends with a boy i'm pretty much head over heels for. I'm back in my room now, with Blossom Top, some chocolate, Switchfoot and my noveau topshop shoes, and I don't think i can see a bad cloud on my horizon. School's going to be a little mucky, but i'm trying to stay afloat with revision and essays cause study leave is hurtling forwards, but it means i get to ditch the parka and haul out the Ray Bans, cause the Summer term has officially begun. And you know what that means.

I've finally sorted out my head, and although i've already slipped up more than once, I'm really trying to become the girl He wants me to become. Plus, i'm feeling a little more sure about the future, and who and what i want in it, and this may include a trip up to Liverpool. I'm just really diggin' this sense of peace that i've learnt to acquire from SH09 (which jesca and charlieeee are getting back from today..eeeep!) and trying to work it into every aspect of my life.

I'm also l.o.v.ing being able to go to the pub (im sorry to those who's birthdays havent come around yet, i'll take you out to t'George/Beau Nash if you fancy?) both with my favourite people and also those new exciting people i don't really know. And we've got a show coming up :] And sunday is six months which i think means taking said boy to London for to hit up Beyond Retro, an ice cream stall and Hyde Park. Aces.

Oh, and there's Lewis on la tele tonight, which is the icing on the cupcake

Flowers were meant to bloom

you will not break a reed that's bruised

(reference to isaiah 61)

Instead of the previous ATL citation, i think this is perhaps a more fitting inscription for my wrist? anyone got any opinions (or, you know, onions) on this current idea, let me know as i'm now of a age where getting a tattoo wouldn't involve a seedy back parlour in brighton. the title of todays post is a worship song that is generally about how everyone has a destiny to fulfil and how there's a God who loves us enough to make it happen.

in case this wasn't already apparent, i kept my promise to blogger, i am not only in a better headspace, but one of the most hopeful and peaceful i've been for a while. Spring Harvest was everything i wanted and oh-so-much more! i truly feel like i've got my sparkle back, and that the reason everything was grey and oblate was because of me, essentially! i'd up sticksed and got a little bit lost in a crowd of people and wasn't really being myself, and was just generally being like everyone else. and its not enough for me, like thats the reason for everything being so sluggish and stagnant (faith wise) is because i'd whacked up my priorities (she says whilst on facebook/blogger during 'revision time') and i'm just desperate to see them right again, which means taking time out from my general existance of being glued to my phone, on topshop.co.uk or in h&m to worship a little more, get encouragement from other christians and generally pray a bit more honestly. and know that whilst im hurting i'm not hurt.

i actually had one of the best evenings out last night, really. like i've gone through this massive emotional/spiritual overhaul in my five days in somerset, but i know i'm not actually that strong yet, and i wasn't sure if i'd collapse under the strain of just general life back where im at. but that was pretty much the opposite of what happened. i did get mocked fairly mercilessly for my newly adopted old lady ways, and my not-even-katie-from-skins-voice-just-one-that-sounds-horrible but i havent actually felt that secure and held in a long time, ace!