(The Almost- Amazing Because It Is)
Yeahhhhh i know that the song has been around for a while, but this specific version is off their album Southern Weather, and pretttyyyy much sums up why I love Aarron Gillespie so.
For like a month, Brand New's album title 'the devil and god are raging inside me' has almost perfectly taken up my neurone space when i'm alone, ive been afraid, ive tried to run, and everytime God blows my mind because he is just so incredible. Thats the rough outline of this entry.
He forced me to re-evaluate my priorites and see that faith is so important. and he's right (duh?). which is why my new years resolution is to try and "capture God." I'm making every effort to put him first, and trust that He loves me, and He's keeping me safe. I'm annoying myself cause it seems everytime i read my bible i stumble across a verse that actually brings me to tears, and its such a pathetic and cliched reaction! But it seems to be to my go-to method to express enough how lucky i am. Ive been brought up in a Christian family, and my parents are such an inspiration to me. But when i was thirteen and i found who God really is by myself, since that day ive never been able to doubt His existance. However, there have been times where I've been so lost it embarrasses me and i get so self-centred and short sighted i end up wondering why He even bothers, quite frankly, but i'm learning to believe that I matter to Him. No matter how many little bits of blackness stick to my heart He'll never abandon me, and is always there to clean me up, and never holds it against me. That I'm loved, and that's it. I'm now reading stuff about how to love Him better, which means trusting that He'll lead me where He needs me to be. Oh, AND ive learnt the genius of Rob Lacey, Ian Henderson and Ems Hancock, anyone should read their books, no matter what you believe, there's something so truly light about them, without ever coming across as preachy. And hey, who knew, Christians can be funny ;]
Lis, i've done it :] I've got the picture of God back to how it should be, and got the Devil out. Really. And i can't thank you enough for helping me with that, you're insanely awesome!
I've got my New years resolutions tailored to being who i'm meant to be, and keeping my eyes focused where they should be, because I love Jesus, and i'm safe. I. Am. Safe, nothing can get me.
